The Selfish Girl’s Guide to Servanthood #1- Jordan Christy┬á
#1 – You’re So Vain You Probably Thought this Blog Was About You┬á
I’ve never considered myself a good candidate for ministry because, let’s be honest, ministry requires….(cue the┬ádreaded,┬áominous crescendo)…
And I have a -┬áoh,┬áhow shall I say this? Not a servantΓÇÖs heart.
In fact, the┬áphrase kind of┬ágives me the creeps.
Well for starters, I like to shop. Not exactly a servant-compatible pastime.
Secondly, I like to get my hair done. Nothing servant-like about that,┬áeither.
And lastly, I love pedicures: the┬ámost self-indulgent of all spa services.
According to my moral handbook, these┬áshallow splurges┬áall fall┬ásquarely in the ΓÇ£selfish” category…right up there with celebrity gossip┬áand other entertainment-related abominations.
Well,┬áI started feeling slightly guilty about all this and figured if God was going to use me I needed to ditch my narcissistic┬áways and get spiritual.
So, I gave away all my clothes, stopped┬ácoloring my hair, and didn’t do my nails for about 3 years. And guess what?
I was miserable.
I was truly the┬áworst servant in the world. Instead of getting┬áservant-heartier, I got┬ácrankier. And┬áuglier.┬áThink┬átwo-inch roots and postpartum┬ásweatpants, folks.
It was then that God began to show me how being a servant didn’t necessarily mean giving up who I was – it simply meant giving myself┬áto Him.
ΓÇ£Oh, God, here I am, your servant, your faithful servant: set me free for your service!ΓÇ¥ ΓÇô Psalms 116:12-19 (The Message)
As I began to surrender my plans and my ways, God┬áshowed┬áme a bigger vision for my life. I could take┬álow-income women on┬áshopping┬ásprees. I could give makeovers to women who’d never felt beautiful. ┬áI could give someone else a pedicure for once.
Maybe, just maybe, God could use me and my vain,┬áself-absorbed┬átendencies after all.
Maybe you, too, feel like you donΓÇÖt quite fit the mold required for Kingdom work? Are you too mom-ish? Too old? Too pretty? Too sporty? If so, feel free to pray this prayerΓÇª
Dear God, YouΓÇÖre the One who created me, so you already know everything about me. You know my strengths, my flaws, my pride, my insecuritiesΓÇªplease show me how you want to use meΓÇöevery part of meΓÇöfor your Kingdom. Amen.