So I was about 19 when I really started feeding myself – getting into the Word for myself. I started seeing things differently. I saw my weakness differently. My weaknesses were always reasons to stay quiet and suddenly I started seeing them as things that were going to make me pray and keep me in a place where I had to depend on God. When suddenly my weakness became my strength, I saw my past different. I saw the things that were haunting me, those scars are now my story and I could offer them to other people and show them how big God’s love is. I started seeing people different. I saw my friends differently. IΓÇÖd gone to school my whole life like most of us and IΓÇÖd been a Christian, but I didnΓÇÖt see people like Jesus did until I began to look at my friendships. I began to look at the people I spent my time with and I began to wonder about their souls. I began to wonder if they knew God, if they were afraid of the same things I was, or if they were going to be in heaven when I got there. Where did they stand with God? And it hurt my heart that I didnΓÇÖt know. IΓÇÖd been in friendΓÇÖs lives for so long and never knew that, but once God shows you something, once God turns the light on in your life, you canΓÇÖt unknow it. So I was having to face the truth of not knowing where my friends stood every time I hung out with them.